Friday, 22 May 2009

Settling in to my new home


That is the view from our living room window at our new place in Kendal, so different from anything in America.

We are settling in to our sleepy little town pretty well and enjoying that despite it's size, Kendal offers everything we need. There are loads of shops, cafes and entertaining things to do. I'm still struggling for things to fill my time since I can't work until after the wedding, but hopefully with the weather improving I'll be able to get outside more at the very least! Today I went out with my future-in-laws for a lovely little lunch and a bit of shopping. Neil's off work at six tonight so I'm killing time watching the Simpsons movie until then. Neil's working the whole bank holiday weekend, but at least we're going for a scrummy roast dinner at his parents' tomorrow :)

Friday, 15 May 2009

66 hours and 35 minutes til England

I'm feeling a bit more reassured after talking to my honey this morning. I know he's trying so hard to have a nice little home set up for my arrival and that he's prepared to deal with a slightly crazy wife(to be) while we live in England. I'm hoping I don't get too lonely or homesick for Vancouver or Portland. I think wedding planning will be a good time absorber. Right now I'm working on our mini-moon to Scotland and having a lot of fun. I've also got my online history courses and we may be purchasing a treadmill with some of our wedding gift money, so hopefully I'll stay busy enough to not drive him or myself too insane.

Today I purchased my second set of invitation materials which my mom and I agree are much better than the other invitations I was going to make. They are lovely embossed purple swirls on cream cardstock. The ones I had been planning on making were very simple heavy soft-white paper layered on black cardstock. They would have been nice but these new ones will be much prettier and luckily everything I had bought before is returnable! I also picked up a 'Here Comes the Bride' tote bag on sale and some very cute 'B' monogrammed luggage tags for hubby and me :D

Thursday, 14 May 2009

Three and a half days

In only three and a half days I will have two suitcases and a carry-on packed with as much of my life as they can hold. I will be moving half way around the world and leaving everything I've known behind. Wow. A little scary.



Although it's not my first move from home, it is the biggest. When I left for university although I was moving to a different country, I was still closer than my classmates who went to the east coast or even southern California. Even so, it was a scary change that I struggled with. I spent the first three months convinced I had made the wrong decision and planned on moving back to Oregon. If I had, my entire life would be different and I would not be preparing for what I currently am.

In less than two months I will be a married woman, living in a foreign country and knowing no one other than my soon to be husband and his small family. Gulp.

I am sure and confident about our wedding, my only doubts are about my impending move. How will I handle it? Will I go crazy? Will I drive my fiance crazy? How will I make friends? Because on top of having the normal post-university crazies (what am I going to do with myself now?) I have to worry about all the other stuff...I feel like Britney-level meltdown is not outside the realm of possibility :/

I haven't really thought too much about it yet. I've been so busy finishing up school, wedding planning and preparing for the fiancee visa that it hasn't really sunk in - until now. I got my visa in the mail today and everything became real. I started staring at all my things and thinking about what would make the cut for the big move and I didn't know how to feel. It's similar to the feeling I had leaving for university. I could (and can now) tell that my parents wanted me to be happy, but that it's incredibly hard for them to watch me go. This makes me sad because I don't know what to do for them. I know it's inevitable that parents will feel sad at these milestones: leaving for university, getting married, etc. because they're letting go of their children, but I wish I could make them feel better.

So I'm sad because I'm leaving my parents (even though technically I've lived away from home for years now) and scared because I don't know what's ahead of me. What I do know is that I have the most incredibly loving, sweet, kind fiance who will take care of me and support me. This makes me feel a lot better, but doesn't take away my anxiety over how I'll meet new people, settle into my new life and what I'll do with my career. I guess I'll have to figure out how to deal with those things as I go...

Thursday, 7 May 2009

ANXIETY!!

Oh my goodness, I have never been so anxious in my life!! I phoned the courier this morning to double check that everything went okay (it did) and we should have an answer either today or tomorrow hopefully. I'm praying we get an answer today because I don't think my poor nerves can handle a very long wait. I woke up just before six this morning with my heart racing and kept waking up the same way every hour until I finally gave up at 9:30.
Now I'm sipping some decaf coffee and planning on watching Grey Gardens (with Drew Barrymore) on my parents HBO. I have to be available on my contact phone numbers until 4pm in case the consulate needs to ask any questions so I'm basically killing time. I think I might work on the wedding invitations a little later, but I'm so edgy and jittery I don't know what to do with myself.
Alright, I'm through with my little venting session. Keep your fingers crossed for us!!!

Monday, 4 May 2009

Where I've been...

Just a quick little update on where I've been lately...
After finishing my exams I said goodbye to all my friends, packed up all my stuff and moved back to Portland on Friday. Since then it's been a whirlwind of picking up my wedding dress :) buying shoes, accessories, my mom's MOB dress, calling again and again about the bridesmaids dresses, etc on top of finally submitting my fiance visa application. I have been working like a crazy woman to gather all the supporting documents and today I have to get a money order and passport photos done. Tomorrow I am getting my biometric data collected and then overnighting everything to the courier who will walk it in to the consulate. WISH US LUCK!!!!! I'm alternating the visa application prep with working on the wedding invitations. AND my two online courses began today. AAAAHHHH! I feel like my head is going to explode! Poor honey is stressed out also, moving into the "Midget House" all by himself and getting everything paid for :/
Hopefully if everything goes according to plan (again, keep your fingers crossed for us) I will be back with him in two weeks!!